The following post was originally written in September 2011.
However, I recently came across this post & God used it to bless me all over again.
And so I share it with you now with hope that God will use it in your heart just as He did in mine.

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This past weekend, my hubby and I took our senior high teens on a rafting trip in West Virginia. It was definitely a great time!

Well, actually, the river manager didn’t want me to go rafting since I’m 34 weeks pregnant. Go figure.

One of our teen guys has down syndrome. His dad came on the rafting trip and went in the same raft as his son. After the trip, we had a time for testimonies and this is what the Dad shared:

“While we were rafting through especially rough waters, I kept my hand on the back of my son’s life vest – just in case. Every once in a while, he would turn around and say, “Don’t let go, Dad.”

This reminded me of how we sometimes are with God…constantly looking up to Him and wondering if He’s forgotten about us or is letting go of us. In reality, He’s the one who needs to say to us, “Don’t let go.””

As I thought about this truth the next morning, Hebrews 13:5 came to mind where God says:

“I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

And the Lord touched my heart in a place that needed His healing hand. Recently, I passed the due date for my little baby who is already in heaven. I’ll be honest – I’ve had a harder time bonding with the baby boy I’m expecting now. And I think the reason why is because I’m afraid I’m going to lose him.

As soon as I heard this Dad’s testimony, this fear immediately came to mind.

I haven’t been holding on to God in this situation. I’ve been trying to do it alone – afraid that He’s going to take another baby from me.

Over the weekend, I gave my struggle to God. I mentally “gave” my baby to Him – He loves him more than I ever can.
And He loves me more than I realize.

I’m the one who has been looking up to God, wondering if He knows and remembers.

But in reality, He’s the One looking down to me, saying,

“I’ve got you. Don’t let go.”