“Don’t Let Go”

This past weekend, my hubby and I took our senior high teens on a rafting trip in West Virginia. It was definitely a great time!

(Well, actually, the river manager didn’t want me to go rafting since I’m 34 weeks pregnant. But I had a great time with the teens before and after the rafting part.) 😉

One of our teen guys has down syndrome. His dad came on the rafting trip and went in the same raft as his son. After the trip, we had a time for testimonies and this is what the Dad shared:

“While we were rafting through especially rough waters, I kept my hand on the back of my son’s life vest – just in case. Every once in a while, he would turn around and say, “Don’t let go, Dad.”

This reminded me of how we sometimes are with God…constantly looking up to Him and wondering if He’s forgotten about us or is letting go of us. In reality, He’s the one who needs to say to us, “Don’t let go.””

As I thought about this truth the next morning, Hebrews 13:5 came to mind where God says:

“I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

And the Lord touched my heart in a place that needed His healing hand. Recently, I passed the due date for my little baby who is already in heaven. I’ll be honest – I’ve had a harder time bonding with the baby boy I’m expecting now. And I think the reason why is because I’m afraid I’m going to lose him.

As soon as I heard this Dad’s testimony, this fear immediately came to mind.

I haven’t been holding on to God in this situation. I’ve been trying to do it alone – afraid that He’s going to take another baby from me.

Over the weekend, I gave my struggle to God. I mentally “gave” my baby to Him – He loves him more than I ever can.
And He loves me more than I realize.

I’m the one who has been looking up to God, wondering if He knows and remembers.

But in reality, He’s the One looking down to me, saying,

“I’ve got you. Don’t let go.”

6 comments

  1. Chelo @ Home and Bahay says:

    Dear Christa.
    This is such a precious testimony. My heart cries and rejoices with you. God is so good. Thank you for sharing such a tender topic/thoughts with us. You are precious. Love, Chelo

  2. Thanks for sharing Christa. I had a miscarriage in October of last year and it was really hard. I battled so much fear as well at the beginning of this pregnancy. But God has taught me so much about trusting Him with the all that my older children have been through. He is SO worthy of our trust…and even when we don’t understand and it seems all is wrong, He is still good.

    Again, thank you for sharing and for being an encouragement.

  3. Keren says:

    Praying for you, Christa. Thanks for sharing. The dad’s story reminds me of the disciples in the boat with Jesus during the storm, too. What a comfort to know He won’t let go. And even if we let go of Him, He’s still got us. But from our end, it feels a whole lot better when we *know* He’s got us, and when we’re holding on, too.

  4. What a sweet illustration of our Father’s love for us. Thanks for sharing your learning experience with us. We went through infertility combined with miscarriage before finally conceiving our Wild Wade. I had a really hard time with the worrying too. It’s so hard b/c with a little life inside you, you have so little control over it! You can’t even see how they are doing… you just have to trust God is caring for them and He knows best!
    And the ultimate ending to our story was that we ended up with a Surprise out of nowhere Baby #3 who just turned ONE last week!!

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